We’re Getting There!!

Well, today is CD 17 (yes, already!) of my February cycle, so we are almost exactly 4 weeks out from our transfer! AF should be arriving in about 2 weeks (please please please don't let this be a super long cycle!) and then we’ll start the process of our FET! To be honest, I’m not exactly sure what this will all entail. When I spoke to my nurse, Claudia a few weeks ago she said that I will go back on the Lupron injections again to suppress my ovaries. Dr. B also mentioned that I’ll have to wear a estrogen patch to assist with my uterine lining. I think I’ll also be starting my prescription prenatal, folgard, methylpred, baby aspirin, dexamethasone and endometrium suppositories at some point…I’m just not sure of the timing yet (before or after transfer.) Starting on CD 2 of my next cycle I’ll have regular blood tests and ultrasounds to check my hormone levels and uterine lining just like with the regular IVF cycle. Once my uterine lining is where it should be (nice and thick) my transfer will take place. This will be MUCH less intense since we aren’t worried about stimulating the ovaries. I’ve heard the worst part of FET is the transfer….you have to have a full bladder when they guide the catheter into your uterus to place the embryos inside…but after everything I’ve been through…this almost sounds like a cinch to me!

For the first time in a long time DH and I are actually getting excited at the possibility of being parents later this year. Both of us started losing hope about 2 years ago, and since then the hope has continued to decline each month. At the start of our IVF cycle, I think DH was really pessimistic about the entire thing and was preparing himself and me for the worst…that we may never have children. But, since we went through the process and KNOW that I produce quality eggs, and that together….my eggs and his sperm make some pretty awesome embryos……we have hope again and are actually letting ourselves be a bit excited. Of course, I don’t want to get too excited because this still may not work, but we are SO CLOSE!

We take our dog for a 2 mile walk each night (and 2 to 3 walks each day on the weekends) and for the last few weeks during our walks we’ve let ourselves say “when the baby gets here.” Wow….this is HUGE for us! We are car shopping as if there is a baby coming, and talking about which room would be best for a nursery and how we will arrange the baby furniture, and how we will introduce our dog to a baby, we’ve decided that I will leave my job after the baby gets here, we talked about possible baby names...…it is true that we’ve never let ourselves go this far before, we’ve never made these decisions. There has just been too much heartbreak to let ourselves get excited. We finally have a reason to be excited again. Oh how we hope that the news will be good in 6 weeks!!