IVF #1 FET #2 CD 15 The day before….

I wasn’t sure if I was going to put up a post today or not….but thought I’d go ahead and put up a “day before the big day” post.

I am doing good…emotionally, I feel like I am in a much better place than I was exactly 2 months ago (the day before our first transfer.) I don’t feel quite so anxious and nervous…I guess that’s because I know what to expect this time around. Part of it is that last time I just kept thinking “this HAS to work, this has to work!” Now, I am just thinking “it would be great if this worked, but if we have to do another retrieval, then we have to do another retrieval.” However, part of me is just glad to have a few more answers than we did last time. I’m happy to be doing something extra (the lovenox) that might just be the key that unlocks our infertility. I don’t know though…and I am certainly not completely hanging my hat on that, because I’ve had too much disappointment over the past 3 years to think that any “one” thing is our answer…I realize now that there is a series of many many things that has to fall into place…not just one.

I had a really nice weekend this past weekend (other than the sore back-side!) I picked DH up on Friday afternoon (he was gone for 6 days doing a bike ride..crazy, I know.) So, it was great to see him. We drove into the next town from where I picked him up…a very old mining town at the bottom of the Rocky Mountains, called Idaho Springs. They had a super old cool downtown, which we walked around, checked out a few shops and then had lunch. On Saturday, we did some house and yard work together, then Saturday night I went out to fondue dinner with a group of girl friends. These friends are fairly new friends, so they don’t know all of my struggle (they do know we’ve been struggling with infertility, but not IVF details,) which was good because no one felt sorry for me or felt weird around me. We were at the restaurant for over 4 hours…and we had an amazing time!! We laughed so hard, and it felt GOOD! We took a bunch of silly pictures, and overall…just had an extremely nice time together. It was JUST what I needed! On Sunday, DH took off for a mountain bike ride with one of the neighbors, and I eased into my morning…putting some pics up on Facebook from our vacation from last weekend and from the night before, and put up a blog post on our family blog. When DH got home…we went and ran some errands together. The only bad thing that happened was when we were leaving Costco and the elderly lady at the door that checks your receipt as you leave the store asked DH if he was a Father. He was like "uhhh no," and as we walked away I said "thanks for reminding us," and DH said "I know." It put a little damper on my spirit, because I was trying to pretend like another Father's Day wasn't passing by without him being a Father. But, we were able to brush it aside and get on with our day.  Later in the day…the neighbor friend and his wife came over for a BBQ….which was really nice too. Overall, it was just a really nice weekend with a little bit of everything. And you know what….I barely thought about infertility and my upcoming transfer hardly at all. Two months ago…I would have been sitting at home stewing, worrying, being anxious. But, this time…I enjoyed my weekend and stayed focus on other things in my life. Now, let’s hope I can keep up this attitude for the next two weeks!

The PIOs are…..well…..as bad as you all said they were going to be. But, DH has been doing an amazing job shooting up my back-side…ha!!! When he does the injection, it really doesn’t hurt that much. Of course, both sides of back-side are extremely sore, but bearable I suppose. What do you guys find more helpful for muscular soreness after PIO....ice or heat? My leg FINALLY started feeling better over the weekend, and I stopped having to limp on it! Yay!!! I realized just how strong we all are for enduring what we are enduring to make our dreams come true. I’m only 4 days into the PIO shots and I am already cranky, and I know there are a lot of you who endured them for weeks on end…so kudos to so many of you!! When I told DH he might be doing this for many weeks into a pregnancy…he was like “oh my gosh!! You chicks are amazing!” Yep, we SURE are, aren’t we?!

There’s been a TON of BFP’s on the blogs lately….Clewis, Renee, Lindsey, Lut and SurlyMama!  Congrats to many of my favorite bloggers…as always, you guys give me hope and strength to keep up the fight. Love to each of you and the baby(ies) growing inside you!

There's also many many many of you in the 2WW right now! Sarah, Marissa, Erin, Maria, A. (soon,) Hopeful in Missouri, Sushigirl, Down the Yellow Brick IVF road, Kelli (soon,) ADSchill, Krystyn, Rosachka (soon,) I am thinking of each of you, and hoping you join the girls I just wrote about above VERY soon!!

And, lastly...congrats to Jill on the birth of her beautiful son, Coen!!!