Okay, I guess I can now officially put that title up, even though AF is "officially" on her way out the door today...good riddance AF!!!! I don't want to see you here for at least 10 or 11 months...ya hear me? Good!
I went in for my blood work this morning...yippee!! (sarcasm) I had a total of 5 vials taken and the nurse said (during the blood draw,) "sorry Krista, you are going to have a nice bruise." Fabulosity, that can go with the nice one on my tummy that I gave myself fron the lupron injection last night! So, now I am waiting for my nurse to call with my estrodial level to see if I can start the estrogen support tonight. I also had a fasting homeocysteine, CBC and another anti-caridio lipin test completed....but I don't think I will get those results for a week or so.
We've slowly been resigning ourselves to the fact that we are going to have to pay for the lovenox (if my anti-cardiolipin results come out the same.) I know I've been a complete complainer about this over the last week or so...I'm sorry. I'm just frustrated at the "extra" costs that keep popping up....even after we dropped $26k for the 6-try program. $6k for the fresh meds and 2 FET meds, then $2k for even more testing (hysteroscopy and labs,) etc. It's such a tough pill to swallow, but I KNOW it will be worth it, and truly I try not to think about the money a lot because I DO know it will be worth it in the end. But, every once in awhile...I just want to complain about it, because mostly I just feel like it is unfair and I feel like we all get taken advantage of because we are desperate. Insurance companies should pay for this shit...period!
Okay, now that I've said my peace....I'll try not to bring it up again for awhile. I did cancel my appointment with the perinatologist because I didn't feel like I was going to get anywhere with him but the same brick wall I got with the other 2 Kaiser docs. So, I didn't want to waste my time (or his.) I have an appointment on Wednesday to meet with the acupuncturist who will be doing my acupuncture on the day of transfer. We are completing the consultation plus one acupuncture session on Wednesday. I am excited to meet with her and hear how she feels she can help with my anxiety and stress during the 2WW.
That's really the latest with me. Since I am leaving to go out of town on Thursday, I won't have anything more to report until next week when I get my results back from the anti-cardiolipin antibodies...I'll know then if I need to purchase the lovenox. Mostly, I won't know anything until the 15th when I go in for my lining check. If the lining looks good...then we'll start the hcg boosters and the dreaded PIO shots!!!!!
How I am feeling....hopeful but I am dreading going through this again. The 2WW was the worst thing I've ever experienced and I can't believe I am going to be there again in a little over 2 weeks. I know I have to do this to get the baby in the end, but I'd do anything not to have to go through this again....
Update: We've been cleared to start our cycle, as I said to my husband "here we freaking go again."
18 comments:
It will all be worth it in the end!
Dont know if you heard about a bill they are trying to pass that would make infertility treatments a tax deduction or not but wouldn't that be nice!!
Here is the link to RESOLVE about the act.
http://www.resolve.org/family-building-options/insurance_coverage/federal-laws.html
I appreciate your "whining" about the costs. I'm likely facing Lovenox injections myself, and I like knowing what I'm getting myself into! I'm crossing my fingers and whispering a little prayer for you. ((Hugs))
The 2ww is possibly the worst part of this (aside from the mounting costs) but I am praying so much that you get the results we are all hoping you will get!!!
So excited for this cycle! I LOVE seeing your excitedness and positive attitude about it! YOU GO GIRL with your bruised tummy! :)
Let us know how the Acupuncture goes! Never tried it, I am curious!
Awwww! Good luck! Lots of fingers crossed for you!
This huge bills are tough for sure. I was talking to my Mom about it today (and we haven't spent nearly what you have - maybe $10k), and Mom just kept reminding me that (1) it's all worth it when you're holding that baby, and (2) kids are expensive and those costs never end... us IFers are just seeing those bills start a little sooner than more.
Hang in there - it will be worth it!!!!!!
All the money and pain WILL WILL WILL be worth it. This IS the month...many prayers coming your way!!! Stay strong girl!!!
I understand what you are feeling about the lovenox ask about a generic or hepron. I know my doc was really pushing the lovenox but their are other options. Hugs and good luck.
DH and I have been joking that our costs may actually go DOWN once we have kids! :)
Glad to hear everything is on track. Hope this is it for you!
So true Tanya!!!!!
Good luck, Krista! Sending you all the best as always! I am also starting acupuncture this cycle (which I think may start tomorrow). I go to fertility yoga and the teacher recommended an acupuncturist who deals with fertility issues only. My first appointment is Thursday. We will have to compare notes! Talk to you soon!
Good Luck with your acupuncture! I thought it was a strange idea, but tried it anyways and I ended up really liking it! I only did a session right before and after transfer, but found it extremely relaxing!
It's hard not to have the feelings....but it will be worth it in the end! =0)
I hope you enjoy the acupuncture and it helps with this cycle. Good luck with the test results.
It's different here in Australia with the payment of IVF. When I did the 2 cycles of it, I got 80% back after reaching the $1000 threshold. Unfortunately for those who are doing IVF now, they only get 20% back. It's ridiculous and only creates more stress and frustration for IF couples who are already feeling pretty crap. Some couples can't even use this option because of the cost.
Glad its a go! Thinking of you and hoping this is your miracle cycle :-)
Thank you so much for your sweet support! :) You're amazing! I'm so excited that you're underway with your cycle. And I don't think you're complaining too much about the costs. $32k down for your miracle in waiting is extremely difficult and makes this process that much more stressful. I'm just hoping and praying that your little ones take up residence and are in your arms in the next 10 months or so. Thinking of you and sending much love and support!
Please oh please let this be your turn!!! I am so with you on the whole insurance crap. We didn't chose to be in this situation. It's a medical thing and it should be covered! I always complain about the money and have only spent half of what you have so feel free hun! Here's to a positive test in a few short (long) weeks!!!
All the best for this cycle... and great to be sharing it with you :) Hopefully our BFPs are on the way soon :)) Love always xoxo
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