Welcome to my blog!

Okay...I know this is not the first time any of you have been to my blog, but in a way I do feel like this is a new blog to me!

First of all, I wanted to thank all of you for the bottom of my heart for "following me over to the other side." I appreciate this more than you know.

While, I'm not sure that I am completely ready to talk about what led me to this decision (I promise to talk about it soon,) I will say that I went back and forth for a few weeks as to whether I was going to keep this blog up or not. There was a lot that went into my decision. The end result was that I did not want to take my blog down, but I knew that I needed to limit who reads me blog.....girls in the IF community only! So, even though it sucks that I will not make "new" fertility friends, I feel like I have a great group of gals here who have been supporting me from the get go. This blog started mostly as a way to document/journal my journey through infertility, and even though it has morphed into something much more, I don't ever want to lose the reason why this blog was originally started.

So, get ready for a lot of open, honest, heartfelt blogging from me because I've really been holding out on all of you! I no longer plan to read my posts over and over again to double and triple check that I am not offending anyone. This is going to be raw, open, honest talk on how I am feeling, what I am going through, what is pissing me off, what is making me grateful, etc. If I'm upset, if I need to vent, if something is bothering me....well I plan to write about it instead of keeping it in because I'd offend someone if I wrote about it.

Sorry to keep you all waiting on the results of my blood tests. I was in a little bit of shock to get the results on Friday, and then have been working on how to coordinate the treatment I will need with my PCP and with Dr. B. As you all know, I've been at this for 3 years...and all of the testing I've ever had has come back "squeaky clean," so I had no reason to believe the testing we had done at the WTF appointment would come out any differently. But, for once....we may have just found an answer, or at least a contributing factor as to why we haven't been able to conceive. I have elevated levels of anticardiolipin, Ab, IgM, Qn 15. I haven't been able to do a ton of research on this but from what I understand it is a blood clotting disorder that is related to your auto-immune response. The treatment for this is to start blood thinning injections the day after my transfer, and then for 12 weeks (if we were to conceive.) I am thankful the treatment is seemingly simple. Who knows if this is the reason why we haven't been able to conceive, but I just feel like it's one more answer that we haven't had. The only thing we can do is hope that this may be the answer and that with treatment we'll FINALLY get pregnant! I'll keep you all updated on that!

Lastly, I've been really bad about commenting lately...but I've been trying my best to keep up with all of you, I promise! I'm afraid my commenting is going to get worse before getting better. The next few weeks are going to be filled with coordinating everything for my next FET, and two small vacations with my husband, but I promise to go back to my normal commenting-self as soon as things slow down. As far as my blog goes....I do plan to post more frequently....so I want you all to know that I do not expect for you to read each and every one of my posts, and I don't expect for you to comment on all of my posts. Feel free to check in on me when you think about it, and comment when something I've said strikes your fancy!!!

I've added a few ways you can contact me (or get to know me better) to the right side of my blog.... I love each of you and am excited for what the future holds for all of us!