10 Weeks

I can't believe I actually have a blog post that says I am 10 weeks pregnant....I think I am definitely still in denial about this whole thing. But, I promised to be more consistent with my posting, so I am going to try and put up a post at least once a week....maybe as we go along I will stop being in such denial about this whole thing. I keep telling Matt "one more ultrasound and I'll believe it." He thinks I am crazy....I think I am too!

I still have pretty bad "morning sickness" most of the day. I like how a few posts ago I said that I was nauseous but not throwing up, then my last post said I was only throwing up in the evenings. Well, each week that seems to change and the previous post no longer applies. I have started throwing up now at the typical time...in the mornings along with the evening throwing up. I can't seem to find any rhyme or reason for this. But, I think in the morning it is because I wake up sick, while eating something while helps...it also just gives my body something to heave back up. So, after throwing up I work all day on getting my calorie intake back and keeping the vomiting away.  As soon as I feel like I am going to throw up...I eat something! I am SO ready for the 2nd trimester! I am hungry ALL THE TIME....and even have lots of cravings but I can only eat a few bites at a time...then I am hungry again in a hour! WTH?!  I was craving beef over the weekend....a burger in particular, so Matt made me a delicious cheeseburger which I inhaled and was shocked that I actually kept down! It was progress!

I settled on an OB. I called to make my first appointment and was told that they usually like to see you for the first time between 8 and 10 weeks. Unfortunately, since I waited so long to call (I was over 9 weeks,) the earliest they had was Tuesday....which makes me almost 11 weeks...oops...guess I waited to long. But, it sounds like I will only be seeing the nurse on that day which I think will probably be pretty uneventful....paperwork, blood pressure, weight, etc.  I am anxious for another ultrasound to see if both babes are still growing on time, so hopefully they'll schedule my next appointment for an ultrasound soon after that. I am finding that it is really difficult to just have faith in the process and believe that everything is okay in there...I seem to wake up every day convinced that they are gone. When did I become this ugly pessimistic person....ick!!!

I bought the snoogle (maternity pillow!) I know it is still early in the pregnancy, but I have been trying to train myself to sleep on my sides since that is very un-natural for me. I hate sleeping on my side....I toss and turn from side to side all night trying to get comfortable. What are you supposed to do with the arm that you are sleeping on?! I've tried hugging pillows and putting one between my legs but that isn't cutting it....so I decided to bring out the big guns and just buy the special pillow. I'm still trying to decide if it is too early to sleep with it or not. I think I'll definitely need it in a month or so.

I had my last blood draw at the fertility clinic this morning. They don't see patients past 10 weeks. That was weird. Me and the phelbotomist that I've bonded with over the months had to say our goodbyes...we hugged and she told me that I was her favorite...ahhhhhh..... I feel so special. I've bonded with a lot of women at the clinic and it is going to be weird not to see them anymore. But, I've promised to keep in touch. My nurse called me this afternoon and said that my progesterone and estrogen levels doubled from last week! My estrogen is well over 3000 now. I asked why both levels were pretty steady over the past few weeks then all of the sudden doubled and the nurse told me that it is because the placentas are taking over. That is just so crazy! But cool at the same time!

I have only been getting on the computer once or twice a week.....which is very weird for me because usually I am on it for 9 hours a day! I've just been too sick and really haven't had much desire to drag the laptop out. Luckily, I have my handy phone, so I have been keeping up with reading emails, reading your blogs and keeping up with facebook happenings. But, typing emails on my phone doesn't really work too well, and commenting on blogger really doesn't work. So, please know that I am reading your emails and blogs, but haven't commented much and there aren't many emails going out. I'm sure once I go back to work I'll be back into my emailing/commenting self!

For now, just trying to have faith in the process and get through the last few weeks of the first trimester!

Always thinking of you all.....