5 Weeks 4 Days

Sorry I haven't updated my blog for awhile....the nausea has REALLY kicked in and being on the computer (or maybe it's just when I'm sitting up) makes me woozy. I've been trying my best to keep up on all of your blogs by reading them on my phone as I lay on the couch....but I can't comment from my phone. So, I AM reading your blogs and keeping up  with you even if I'm not commenting. It sounds like many of you have very exciting things going on!!

I am hanging in! Besides nausea....the mysterious left ovary pain that no one has been able to identify what it is (suspected endo,) has gotten much much worse over the past week or so. In addition to that...I woke up with some more brown discharge this morning...which made me very nervous!

I decided to call the clinic to let them know about the pain and also the brown discharge. The nurse quickly said not to worry about the brown discharge...that is was completely normal and probably just from my hormones. But, she was a bit worried about the left ovary pain, and said it would be best to come in for an U/S to rule out tubal (I knew the odds were low since the pain is not a new pain, just a more intense pain.) So, I went in awhile ago for an U/S and indeed......there are 3 gestational sacs in my uterus, none in the tubes (still no answer to left ovary pain.) Unfortunately, she said I am about 2-3 days too early to see any yolk sacs or fetal poles, the tech said the earliest they could see those on this U/S machine is 6 weeks....5 weeks 6 days at the earliest. Of course, I was a bummed about that...I know many of you have been able to see more at this point...but I just keep telling myself the tech reassured me that the earliest she's seen more is 5 weeks 6 days...so trying to stay calm. All were measuring within a few days of each other....two of them a day or 2 behind. She said, again...it is too early to say if they are exactly where they should be because of the margin of error with U/S....they would only be worried if they were measuring more than 4 days behind. All were measuring over 5 weeks though, and she did say with multiples...they do tend to measure a few days smaller (not sure why.)

We are very very very cautiously pregnant with triplets. I had a good talk with the RE that was in the office today and she was very honest with me...basically said not to tell anyone about the triplets until our U/S on the 21st because it is possible that one or even two of them will not continue on. Of course, it is possible that all 3 will continue on, but we won't know until the next U/S how everything looks. She did say the odds that we'd lose all 3 are pretty low, so that made me feel better. I just need to see at least one heart beat on the 21st!

This is all so scary and surreal. I wasn't sure if I should laugh or cry. I'm just not sure how to feel right now and that is part of the reason I may sound weird in this post. I wish I could snap my fingers and jump to the 21st so I'd know if all 3 were continuing to develop....or none. I'd never "wish" that one of them didn't continue on, but if one doesn't....this may save us from having to make a difficult decision later (i.e reducing.) But, at the same time...I'll be bummed in a weird way if only 1 or only 2 continue on...it's such a weird feeling. I honestly don't know how to feel. All I know is that I want one healthy baby in my arms at the beginning of 2012....that's all I want.